memories are like knives....twisting in my heart. I feel each any every one of them...and wish....why. Why did I do that?!
I now know why angels have wings.
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
goodbye I love you
There is a pain I feel from the depths of my soul. A pain that you will never know because it is caused by the absence of you.
"Through love, all things are possible." I have spent all of my 36 years believing this. Today, I found out it isn't true. I don't like this reality check...I always believed with ALL my heart that if you loved someone enough, anything and everything was possible.
This will change me. No longer will I believe in "true love"...the biggest LIE ever told. Quite simply, the idea that "love conquers all"...is little more than a myth.
Also, I am really fucking stupid.
I made the one mistake (repeatedly) that I always swore I never would. I lied to make myself seem better than I was because I was insecure about practically everything. I was ashamed of what I am and was afraid the woman of my dreams would not have me if she knew the truth....which I eventually told her anyhow.
The problem is that by the time I did, I had already broken her heart.
All i knew to do was to try my hardest to make things right and pray I didn't hurt her more than she loved me. I was wrong.
The woman of my dreams...my angel...my love...is gone.
And I don't know what to do...
"Through love, all things are possible." I have spent all of my 36 years believing this. Today, I found out it isn't true. I don't like this reality check...I always believed with ALL my heart that if you loved someone enough, anything and everything was possible.
This will change me. No longer will I believe in "true love"...the biggest LIE ever told. Quite simply, the idea that "love conquers all"...is little more than a myth.
Also, I am really fucking stupid.
I made the one mistake (repeatedly) that I always swore I never would. I lied to make myself seem better than I was because I was insecure about practically everything. I was ashamed of what I am and was afraid the woman of my dreams would not have me if she knew the truth....which I eventually told her anyhow.
The problem is that by the time I did, I had already broken her heart.
All i knew to do was to try my hardest to make things right and pray I didn't hurt her more than she loved me. I was wrong.
The woman of my dreams...my angel...my love...is gone.
And I don't know what to do...
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